My best friend has this new thing going with this new guy. He tells my friend that he wants to run an idea past me concerning her. So, we add each other on skype and he asks me how he thinks I should ask her to prom. We're all in college but once he found out that my friend had never gone to prom, he decided it would be fun and cute if he asked her to go. I think it's totally sweet and we brainstormed ideas for a good hour or so. Keep in mind by this time it's midnight and my best friend and I are roommates. So, she comes in my room after me and her guy are done discussing prom. We all talk and laugh for a while until my friend says she needs to get to bed. It's one in the morning by now. I ask her if it's ok if me and him keep talking and she says it's fne. So my best friend/roommie heads off to bed and me and her guy are left talking. We end up getting in this really deep conversation about everything that has gone wrong in his life and how it has affected him. So, I stay up and listen to him because I feel like if I was in his situation, I would want someone to talk to. After that conversation we talked about movies and music until we both were tired and decided to call it a night. By then, it was three in the morning.
Now, according to "girl code", this is unacceptable. I told my friend that me and her guy stayed up talking till three last night and she did not like the sound of this. At first, she thought that I had just spilled every little secret that I knew about her, to him. I KNOW that is not acceptable and the fact that she thinks I would do something like that hurts like hell. Then she proceeds to explain that she thinks I'm going to steal him away from her because I have done that in the past with my other friends. At this point in time I want to tell her just to fuck off because that's NOT what happened, and she knows it! And she also knows how badly I feel for what I did to those other girls. The fact that she would think I would even consider doing that to her shows how much she trusts me. I tried to explain to her (without going into details) what me and her guy talked about and how it sucks to feel completely worthless all the time, and me and him are in the same boat about that. We're in the same boat on a lot of things concerning emotional problems. But, she refuses to listen. She just sits there and says how I'm so inconsiderate towards her feelings. I then told her that I was trying to be a friend towards this guy who I could see was having a rough time, and if me and her can't be friends because me and him are friends is absolutely pathetic and shows me where our friendship lies. My best friend/roommie have been friends since the fourth grade.
What I feel like people want to do to me almost always. Maybe I would be better off as a bloody mess and left to rot.
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