I found out my exboyfriend has a new girlfriend. Does that leave me room to be upset?
A B S O L U T E L Y N O T.
But I still am. This is really pathetic but I went onto his facebook and I saw he was in a relationship.
I instantly started crying. Then I started saying, I hate you! Over and over and over again...
I was hoping that if I repeated the phrase enough, I would eventually start to mean it.
I'm in no way, shape, or form over this boy. We broke up 8 months ago. We kept in contact, still saw each other, and even sometimes kissed. Maybe that's where I went wrong. When you break up, break up! Stop talking to him, stop seeing him and let your heart heal. Now I'm here, worse then ever.
I swear to God I was going to marry this kid. He was seriously everything I was looking for and what I felt for him (still do...) I would walk through hell for him. But now he has someone new. And picturing him with someone else absolutely kills me. Shatters my already broken heart.
I read somewhere that if you truely love someone, you want them to be happy even if you're not a part of that happiness. Does that mean I don't truly love him? I'm being selfish and jealous and I shouldn't be. He's not mine anymore. But I still want him. I still see him as mine.
Please, heart, I'm begging you... Get over him.
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